吃蛇

Week 12 来了
Week 13 近了
Reading Week 不远了
Finals 要完了

Positive thinking positive thinking!!

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星期六
去Bugis吃饭逛街
和朋友一起回忆在韩国的日子
想念
但
回到现实吧！

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星期天
去Vivo只花S$5看了两部电影
然后奢侈吃Sushi Tei当宵夜

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Achievement of the week:
1 SDL down
1 PBL down

To be done:
1 last PBL
F.I.N.A.L.S.

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Who likes my song playlist? Hands up leh!! :PPP


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~random~

난 좋아

난 이번 주부터
수업 다 끝났다
과제 두 게 남았다
시간이 많은 것 같지만
난 사실 시간 없다
근데 부모님은 모른다
내가 거짓말 할 줄 안다
난
어이없다
전화하며 그냥 웃었다
실은
웃었으며 내 맘이 울고 있다
참
속상하다

It's Autumn

Can you feel the "Autumn" today?
Despite the high humidity
today's weather is sooooooo perfect...
soooo good that i actually chose to walk back hostel
all the way from KR mrt station

I usually take A1 from science
and take one big round to get back to the bus terminal
'cause it's nearer to my room
I'd rather take the 15mins bus ride,
than to walk for 5mins from foyer to my room
haha
ya i'm lazy :P

But today's weather was so good ^^
It felt right autumn ^^
though I've never experienced the real autumn before ^^

What should one do during autumn?
I don't know~
How would I know since I grow up in a tropical country~
But
Here's a suggestion from "someone":
Listen to some ballad ^^
such as the songs by the Prince of Ballad ^^
which is currently autoplayed on this blog ^^
nice right ^^

I'll keep on adding his song to the playlist ^^
and introduce each of one in details later ^^
to spread the power of his voice ^^
muahahahaha...

미치겠다~
맞어 난 미쳤어~

Give me some response if you like the songs
please~ ^^

稍息

Taking a rest from answer-searching tonight~

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Yesterday
Mum said that
I'm a person who is brave to speak out injustice
in other words
I'm brave enough to "complain"!!!

Err...

I don't really know how she came out with such conclusion
that I like to complain???
I'm usually quiet and shy and introvert...
no?

Haha...
Perhaps things change over the years
especially after I'm back from Korea
Don't know why
but I do agree that I start to see imperfection in my surroundings now
and involuntarily criticise and "complain" about the imperfections

The most recent example?
Well...
One day, I was so pissed off by the hall-ers opposite my room
who played band out loud at midnight
so irritated and frustrated till I called the campus security to report
O.O
ya...
I was shocked by myself that I actually made that call
and complain
muahahahaha...

But really...
I'm not a complain queen :P

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Few years ago
when I was staying in hostel with 3 other girls
I was rather "crazy" after becoming close with them
ya...
my ex-classmates would know that
though I'm quiet most of the time, I'm actually a crazy person :P

There was once my ex-roommate said that
I'm a Drama Queen
XD
such a honour
XD

Ya...
I'm crazy...
Don't be deceived by my quietness :P

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The same ex-roommate also once said that
I'm a "determinant" person
who would do anything to achieve whatever I WANT to do
but too bad those things are usually non-academic
e.g. finished Harry Potter book during exam period, as if the book would be tested
e.g. bought whole set of knitting materials just to do a DIY case for my calculator
>.<

How I wish I have such determination when it comes to study
>.<

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Now that I missed my ex-classmates (you know who you are)
and my ex-roommates as well
coz
I can only be the truly me
in front of them
-- a quiet and emo girl, who suddenly goes crazy and makes funny sounds without any reasons
-- a introvert and shy girl, who talks nonsense to best friends only

I MISS YOU ALL, FRIENDS!!!!!

...and I miss "myself"...

寻找答案 VI

今天爸妈来新加坡一起吃饭
终于有时间坐下来好好和爸妈讲升学的事了
可是
就只讲了我这几天得出来了的结论：
我不能进NUS Grad School

至于澳洲纽西兰
只稍～～～微地提了一下
稍～～～微说了说那里的学费
可是
妈好像懂我的意思
说：
自己好好想
出国再继续读，有帮助吗？

Good question!!

有帮助吗？
用两年、花百多千，换一张硕士文凭
有用吗？

我哪里懂啊？！！！

不懂就问人咯……
Mentor，你准备被我烦吧
啊哈哈哈哈哈～

=.=

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No answer tonight,
only more questions~

寻找答案 V

With PMS past
my brain becomes slightly more rational and reasonable
time for "answer-searching" again~

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First
I shall admit that I can't enter NUS grad sch anymore
and I have no intention to "beg" my prof to help me
I dont have enough passion towards research that drives me to do so

So
NUS out

Second
I know it's possible to get into overseas university
but
definitely no scholarship nor "tuition grant" anymore
hence
the tuition fees are really shockingly high
MD study in aus or nz would cost >$30,000/yr
haiz...

So
here comes the questions/options:

1) get money from parents and continue MD?
2) loan from bank and continue MD?
3) forget about further studies and just start working?
4) work first, pay back the 3 years bond, then go back to study?

Let's think let's think >.<

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Anyway, one answer tonight:
= No more NUS
= no need to worry about the grad sch application
= focus on SDL and PBL assignment >.<

寻找答案 IV

또 울고 싶다

I really hope that it's purely PMS
and not FYP-induced depression
because
PMS will disappear in few days
but FYP-induced depression will worsen throughout the year

寻找答案 III

드디어
난 울었다
힘들어 죽겠다
외로워 죽겠다
그만 하고 싶다

寻找答案 II

So i got filtered out from NUS
that makes me step back
and think about my post-graduation plan

BUT
not all universities are that "prominent"
it's still possible to continue with Md overseas
just that
the fees are...depressing...
not many countries would be like s'pore
which have this thing called Tuition Grant
i must admit that s'pore MOE is really generous
to subsidise almost 40% of the tuition fees
in return?
you just need to work for them for 3 years (or more? i dunno)

Why give me such options now?
>.<

Why I only find out about this now?
>.<

Why why why?
>.<

Yesterday I thought I was one step nearer to the answer
but tonight
I'm one step further
again...

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this time
whom should I talk with?
my Dr uncle who got PhD in NZ?
but i'm not close to him
though he once gave me some advice
when i was choosing my major 3 years ago~

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this blog is turning into a depressing diary of a depressed FYP UG...
pardon me please~

寻找答案

小学到中学，甚至到初院
该去哪里、该读什么
都是爸妈做主、给意见
我几乎没什么“自由”／“机会”做选择
比如说
小三PTS该不该跳班，我只能说“OK”
升中学去康文，我也只能说“OK”
中学毕业去新加坡读初院，我也默默地说“OK”

那时唯一做的决定，
好像就是，该读什么科，
结果以删除法选了生物＋化学＋数学＋经济

然后，上大学
几乎是没有选择的选择
就新加坡国大咯
然后再一次已删除法选了 Life Sciences Major
大三选 specialisation 时
又一次删除法选了 Biomedical Sciences

何谓删除法？
就是说
我知道我不喜欢什么
但我不知道我喜欢什么
所以，在删除了我不喜欢的课／科系后
剩下的选项，就成了我的“选择”咯～

现在，又一个难题：
“该不该继续读硕士？”

终于
我没有选择权了
终于
被淘汰了
也终于
“被逼”好好想一想接下来的打算

答案
越来越靠近了
越来越清晰了

只是
还不敢确定自己的想法
还没有勇气做决定
还不想接受现实
哈……