am i doing the right thing?

i think i m getting indifferent subconsciously
i sort of "refraining" myself from initiating a convo
being too busy in lab?
being too tired after lab?
i think that s just excuses
i think...
i m just being too afraid of getting hurt
if i m the only one trying hard
but getting nothing out of it
i m just too weak to handle it
so
i choose to escape
choose not to care too much
i hope
it d turn out better
since we can never return to the original state anymore