힘들다

next time
if anyone were to say "University is Honeymoon"
i'm so going to shout back at him/her
STOP CHEATING THE KIDS!!!!
AND STOP GIVING THEM SUCH "BEAUTIFUL" ILLUSION ABOUT UNIVERSITY LIFE!!!

yes
i admit that in university
you could have a more flexible timetable
it's possible not to have class in morning
it's possible not to have midterms/exams
it's possible not to attend class as well
but
they all have a payoff

you want to sleep late or have free day?
can~
you gonna have late evening class
or you gonna have days packed with classes
so packed that you won't have time for lunch or dinner
so packed that you can only eat bread and can drinks inside lecture theatre

you want to have midterm-less or exam-less courses?
can~
you just need to spend more time doing assignments
and get ready to be overwhelmed by essays, reports, presentations
and sometimes get frustrated over your project group

you want to skip class?
can~
be prepared to spend more time at night and weekends to mug
and be prepared to lose the A's in exams as well
not everyone is so genius to be able to score a test without attending lectures

* * *

if others don't understand the hardship of an university student
especially a final year student
it's perfectly fine
but
please
please stop continue assuming him/her having honeymoon
when he/she already said that he/she is busy with schoolwork
that he/she has no extra time for anything else except schoolwork

what we want
is just some space
not freedom
but space
space that allows us to have the nights and weekends private
space that allows us to be alone in room and study
most importantly
space that allows us to have some quietness
complete quietness

* * *

i can bare the hardship and stress
of all the assignments and lab works
only if
you can truly understand my condition
and give me some space
i don't really need any physical or verbal support
i just need space
please

* * *

지금 숨 쉬기도 힘들다
가슴이 너무 답답하다
그만 하고 싶지만 안되겠지
참아참아 참아야한다

그리고
요즘 좀 외롭다
성시경 노래를 그만 들어야지
좀 울우한것같다
근데
그 목소리 어떻게 뺄 수가 있냐